After all’s that been said and done, I’m still me, paranoid and insecure.
I did some self-reflection on the long journey to work. It was an extremely emo ride, exacerbated by the lack of sleep. I don’t know why I’m at work now when I barely slept and my mind’s somewhere else.
Best Bud said I’ve been in many relationships but I can’t maintain and make them last.
It all boils down to my insecurities and the lack of confidence in myself. I need to stop myself from having bouts of insecurities almost every single day, when there is not much cause or basis for such feelings.
Someone (is it hy?) said before that being insecure is not attractive. I can’t agree more.
Insecurity has always been my downfall and I won’t let it get me again.
I suck as a gf and I haven’t been a good one at all all this while.
Baby, baby baby, be with me, okay? I need to deal with this inherent problem that has been bugging me for a long time and I can’t do this on my own.
I still want to be that gf who irritates the shit out of you, says “Why are you…I don’t know, I don’t know” and gives you massages. You mean so much more to me than I could ever express.
And could we do supper tonight cos I don’t think I have the time to grab dinner?