In 4 hours or so, I’ll be embarking on my Eastern Europe trip for the Christmas break. It’s gonna be quite a mad-cap adventure, considering that our planning was completely last minute and still is in tatters but we’ll improvise along the way.
I won’t be back in Freiburg till the 2nd or 3rd so I would like to write this down now, to say how much I’m grateful to be here and to the people who have made this exchange possible and in the best way one could have.
It’s been an amazing year, the best in my life thus far. I’ve met a certain baby whom I love to bits. I’ve accomplished a 9 year old dream of backpacking Italy alone. I’m here, in this continent where my interest and passion in history lie. I’m here, taking lessons and experiences to shape me for the rest of my life. With all these, it’s the best year I’ve ever had.
Before I leave, I’d like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
I hope it could be a white Christmas in Prague.
I watched as the snow fell sporadically from the sky, disappearing almost as soon as they touched the ground. Snow flakes fell onto my hair, eye lashes and black coat as I froze under three layers of clothes. My heart’s initial panic of not having my visa extended today and missing Barcelona tomorrow as a result seemed to ease away. It was now replaced by a pang of yearn and longing for a certain baby. I wished that he was here to walk with me in the snow, holding my hand in my red glove.
The snow continues falling outside my window as I type this. It’s been exactly 3 months since I’ve been in Europe but I am still not used to nights without you by my side.
And yes, it’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.
In this very special year, I met a boy on 26th March over my favourite mocha frap and a rather tasteless potato salad at my favourite Starbucks. Almost unexpectedly, we fell in love over conversations of football, music, motorcycles and life. Over the months, from seemingly unconsequential conversations about our similar interests on a rather superficial level, we progressed onto deeper conservations about history, our dreams, future, marriage, issues on a more personal and intellectual level. And so, I’ve found my best friend, my soulmate, my baby, my boyfriend, my dearest love in this boy who has become the man I’ve come to know now.
I love you, Baby. It’s been amazing how this year has turned out because of you. I know things will only get better because I’ve found you.
After trials and tribulations that we’ve gone through, they reaffirm my love for one man, the man of my life.
Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do. That’s what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I’ll be seeing you.
It’s 337 am here in Stuttgart and 1037 am back home. It’s barely been two days and I feel like I can’t do this for 4 months.
My heart is laden with pain and yearn, wishing I hadn’t decided to embark on this.
I miss you baby. It breaks my heart cos I can’t be there for you, to hold you like always, to tell you that everything would be fine again.
But take heart, this separation is temporary. You know I’ll come back to you and we’ll be much stronger after that.
Take heart, my dearest love.
For the first time in my life, I can truly say that I wanna settle down and share my life with someone.
You make me feel like the one.
Iloveyou, baby chan.